I should have no problem with commitment. I mean, I am married after all. It should be no big deal. I’m also a mother. Theoretically, I should have no problem with commitment. I do though. I’m afraid of committing to my self.
What do you mean?
I make myself promises and consistently break them. I tell myself that I will be kind to my body, and then I beat it up. I’m not nice with self-talk. I am my worst enemy.
2012 was a year where I came into contact with a lot of things that I didn’t like about myself. Instead of addressing them I swept them under the rug and told myself that they would get better.
Someday, they would get better. Guess what? They didn’t. I still have 30 pounds to lose, workouts to complete, curtains to hang and other stuff I don’t want to address.
Well, there’s no better time to start than right now. I’m not going to call these resolutions because I’m not good at those. However, I am going to say that these are things that I would like to accomplish in 2013 and beyond.
2013 – A Plan in the Making
Sweat 3 x’s a Week – Pretty self-explanatory. I need to get moving at least 3 x’s a week. Whether it be Bikram Yoga (love!!), running (less love) or any other physical activity, I will do this.
Blog More – I used to blog often. It was a daily event and then life got in the way. I enjoy it so I’m telling myself that I will do it more often. That being said, it will be posts that I can do during my lunch hour at work.
Lose a Few – or more than a few. I really would just like to lose 30 pounds. It is a daunting task, but if I set my mind to it I can accomplish it.
Run Another Half Marathon – Last year (2011) I ran the San Antonio Rock ‘n’ Roll Half Marathon. I had a broken toe and it was, by far, the worst run of my life. That being said, I loved training for it, and I loved running it. It didn’t matter if I couldn’t walk the next day. I finished and I got a medal. I also wasn’t the last one to cross the finish line. I can only improve.
Reduce Debt – Mine, not the country’s. Simple enough: spend less, save more.
I think that I’ve set big expectations for myself, but nothing is unattainable here. Now I just need to do what I need to do.
Here’s to hoping that everyone has a wonderful New Year’s celebration and a phenomenal 2013.
I also hope that everyone has a lot of wine. It is, after all, required.